You can think I’m a heartless and selfish Bee, but I’m totally honest. This time of the year is the worst for me.
Everyone seems obliged to be jolly and to put their hypocritical mask of happiness. Let’s face it my friends. Are you all really enjoying the “Holiday” period? Are you really happy to force yourself to be the joyful person you’re not inside?
Some of you are truly happy and I’m really glad for them because nowadays it’s becoming something really hard to achieve.
They say it’s the best time of the year that the love is everywhere blah blah blah… I don’t quite believe in it except for children. This time is magical for children because they truly believe, they are genuinely and sincerely happy during this period. And, what is more magical than a large and wide smile on a child’s face?
That’s something I’ll never know. At least I won’t have kids on my own so I won’t feel the sensation of the accomplishment by seeing your own child happy.
No one will ever call me “mom”. And, that’s what this period keeps reminding me. It keeps reminding me that I’ll never feel the unconditional love you are supposed to feel. Some will argue that adoption could be an option, but the process is too long and I’m single. So the application will be denied anyway.
The mood will get better in January.
I wish you a wonderful holiday period and all the happiness you deserve in life.
See y’all folks